Lost...Again

I just don't know again,
I don't know where I am,
Where I'm going.

Once again
I find myself lost,
Lost amongst the flowers
And the memories.

It's as if nothing ever changed,
I'm back…
Back there again.

Pick up my mask again,
And dance for everyone,
Just like I used to.

Spinning until I'm in a dizzy bliss,
But it's all false,
And I now that when I'm alone,
I will have to face it.

I'm lost again,
Lost and surrounded
By people,
Too many people,
I just want them to leave.

But I just keep going,
Putting on a smile for them.

I'm happy if you're happy.

Just keep saying that,
And I will eventually believe it.

But I will still be lost again.